Jingying, loving me for decades? ♥

Friday, June 20, 2008 ♥.

HEY PEEPS (:

school gonna reopen in three days. fast yea? a month's time, gone like a racing car. so much things happened, happy & sad, smiles & tears. this is driving me crazy. like what i always said, i hope time can stop at this moment just for me. but it wont ever happen, yes i wont. that's stupid, this kinda selfish request. but well, sometimes imagining for something you longed for will seem much better and nicer then in reality. if it happens, it wont be as beautiful anymore. this kinda feeling which lets you feel like dieing, you'll feel sorry for people who once advised you not to take that particular step. yet, its the biggest move you've decided to take to show that they're wrong. no matter what people say, it doesn't matter. actually, no matter how sad, consoles & concerns from people dont really help. but ironically, you'll need it. because you just simply need people to be there for you. you cheered up, because you finally get to see the clear blue sky once again after the heavy downpour. it all depends on yourself to control your emotions. but, emotions is the hardest thing you'll ever be able to take over. so i believe its the biggest challenge i face. yes, i do. i hate the night these days, love turning into hatred. this is driving me crazy. the silence in the night can kill you slowly and softly. yes it will.

& frankly, the night is driving lots of people crazy. yes it is. because i realized, fear of being alone really burns. sometimes, i believe many people just felt like shouting out loud how sad they're. but wait, whats the point? how do you express the amount of sad? can you, will you? i dont tell when im sad, because.. i dont see the need, because i feel that, it may invite much troubles as well. because i know, and im sure. so i chose the quiet way instead. i shant say much. like what i told liquid, if i can pull thru a week's of everything, i believe i have the all it takes to walk on. its not the end of life, no its not. why cant we put it in a positive way? test yourself, test the love, test whatever it takes to be as one. if you follow the emotions, you fall right into the trap. and yes, isn't this what they wanted? so lets just take it as normal. no worries, this aint the first time either. a deep down trust means more than a thouand words. like a kiss stand for a million words. let's just remember the actions and that's enough. im sure everything will be fine. because im sure, the faith in everything, its always there. shh, theres not a need for any word. because i believe, one day, we will find a place that belongs to us. (:

please dont think im emo. im fine! ^^

signing off--
l.a.l.l.a.l.a

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Left @ 6/20/2008 05:31:00 PM