Saturday, September 27, 2008 ♥.
im left with 2o days..
i didn't attend school yesterday, as my sore throat had worsen and i was running a fever. was supposed to study with khai and th rest yesterday as well, but i cancelled it cause i wasn't feeling any better at that time. and yes, had decided to focus on a few subjects for th time being. i did this as i favour into th course i wanted to get in into. must work hard.
didn't wanted to blog, as i dont know what i shud really write. but well, i believe i shudn't leave my blog dead for such a long time. so, i'll try to update whenever im free. but it'll be much lesser, as my focus now is on my Os and thats my aim. i'll beat myself down. nothing is ever too late, but only giving up is th excuse that lazy pple gives. thats a loser's reason.
even if you're left with 7 days. it is still possible to do well. because, its th hard work that pays. not by th mouth but by actions. im lazy by nature. but its youself who can stop all these. think of th future, and you'll know its worth your change. trust me.
and i realized, pple tend to say, time will heal. and you'll get everything over soon. im a normal human being, im not god. its not as easy as said. when it happens to you, you'll understand what i mean. no consoles wud have helped but you'll still need it. whenever you're alone, when everything quietens down, you'll feel th loneliness and th silence surrounding you. you'll realized th things you've lost. you'll never start to think what you've gain. this is nature.
i've always been childish, and running away from reality. because in th past, i know, a man wud be there to hold on to my sorrows and everything. because, i need not open my mouth to tell, and th words have already travelled to his heart and mind. he knows what im thinking, what im facing, he knows what to advise me and teach me, and he knows, what to do to make me feel at ease. i often neglected th fact, that i'll have fact all these on my own, someday.
i appreciated all these that he have done for me. and im glad that whatever he teaches me, i'll remember it. i will heed all his advises. and in his last words, he told me, whatever i do, he'll be behind me. i'll take my own path now, with him around me always. like what ms chong always tells me : " life sucks... but not all the time.... " i'll remember it, ms chong (:
i didn't attend school yesterday, as my sore throat had worsen and i was running a fever. was supposed to study with khai and th rest yesterday as well, but i cancelled it cause i wasn't feeling any better at that time. and yes, had decided to focus on a few subjects for th time being. i did this as i favour into th course i wanted to get in into. must work hard.
didn't wanted to blog, as i dont know what i shud really write. but well, i believe i shudn't leave my blog dead for such a long time. so, i'll try to update whenever im free. but it'll be much lesser, as my focus now is on my Os and thats my aim. i'll beat myself down. nothing is ever too late, but only giving up is th excuse that lazy pple gives. thats a loser's reason.
even if you're left with 7 days. it is still possible to do well. because, its th hard work that pays. not by th mouth but by actions. im lazy by nature. but its youself who can stop all these. think of th future, and you'll know its worth your change. trust me.
and i realized, pple tend to say, time will heal. and you'll get everything over soon. im a normal human being, im not god. its not as easy as said. when it happens to you, you'll understand what i mean. no consoles wud have helped but you'll still need it. whenever you're alone, when everything quietens down, you'll feel th loneliness and th silence surrounding you. you'll realized th things you've lost. you'll never start to think what you've gain. this is nature.
i've always been childish, and running away from reality. because in th past, i know, a man wud be there to hold on to my sorrows and everything. because, i need not open my mouth to tell, and th words have already travelled to his heart and mind. he knows what im thinking, what im facing, he knows what to advise me and teach me, and he knows, what to do to make me feel at ease. i often neglected th fact, that i'll have fact all these on my own, someday.
i appreciated all these that he have done for me. and im glad that whatever he teaches me, i'll remember it. i will heed all his advises. and in his last words, he told me, whatever i do, he'll be behind me. i'll take my own path now, with him around me always. like what ms chong always tells me : " life sucks... but not all the time.... " i'll remember it, ms chong (:
baby, i'll love you in th heart (:
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Left @ 9/27/2008 03:25:00 PM
Left @ 9/27/2008 03:25:00 PM
