Thursday, October 30, 2008 ♥.
its 3o october today..
happy birthday & rest in peace my dear brother.
hahahah! nice photo yea? thank me ^^
long time since we've had a photo like this.
we all looked so toooooot.
i screwed up emaths paper two today. im am feeling damn f***ed-up! i was so confident in my paper one. yet my mind went blank during today's paper. i feel like crying out loud, i dont wish to recieve a red slip when i recieve my o levels results. im god damn disappointed. but its over. its so shitty. i feel retarded, my A is gone. i think i'll even have problem even just passing this idiotic paper. why cant i just overcome th stress today! what th hell was on my mind!? whatever it is, i hope that it'll turn out fine. but im very disappointed, but i tried my best. thou its over, i feel so pain now. damn it. im going crazy. that's all for today. hope i'll have a better day ahead tmrr then. ( thou kinda impossible, two freaking poa paper & one bio?! ) pray hard to god, bless me pleasee. thank you.
its th 5th time im doing this.
and th 3rd time facing this alone.
happy birthday & rest in peace my dear brother.
hahahah! nice photo yea? thank me ^^
long time since we've had a photo like this.
we all looked so toooooot.
i screwed up emaths paper two today. im am feeling damn f***ed-up! i was so confident in my paper one. yet my mind went blank during today's paper. i feel like crying out loud, i dont wish to recieve a red slip when i recieve my o levels results. im god damn disappointed. but its over. its so shitty. i feel retarded, my A is gone. i think i'll even have problem even just passing this idiotic paper. why cant i just overcome th stress today! what th hell was on my mind!? whatever it is, i hope that it'll turn out fine. but im very disappointed, but i tried my best. thou its over, i feel so pain now. damn it. im going crazy. that's all for today. hope i'll have a better day ahead tmrr then. ( thou kinda impossible, two freaking poa paper & one bio?! ) pray hard to god, bless me pleasee. thank you.
its th 5th time im doing this.
and th 3rd time facing this alone.
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Left @ 10/30/2008 07:47:00 PM
Left @ 10/30/2008 07:47:00 PM
Wednesday, October 29, 2008 ♥.
just stay strong in love.
i know dearr's feeling.
because i've taste th bitter of th one i love leaving me.
just to tell dearr, stay strong & hold on tightly okay.
if you really love him, just hold on till th last minute no matter what.
just remember, as long as he is still breathing, just hold on.
trust me, even thou waiting for a long period will hurt badly.
but as long as you do your best, you wont regret.
you'll be fine, anything, i'll be here.
yesterday was a miserable night.
i know dearr's feeling.
because i've taste th bitter of th one i love leaving me.
just to tell dearr, stay strong & hold on tightly okay.
if you really love him, just hold on till th last minute no matter what.
just remember, as long as he is still breathing, just hold on.
trust me, even thou waiting for a long period will hurt badly.
but as long as you do your best, you wont regret.
you'll be fine, anything, i'll be here.
yesterday was a miserable night.
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Left @ 10/29/2008 02:37:00 PM
Left @ 10/29/2008 02:37:00 PM
Friday, October 24, 2008 ♥.
lovely, my dearest ku witaya.
i dont know why, but i just have that sudden urge..
to tell you this, baby im sorry, i really miss you.
just one more time, i'll wanna hear your voice & see your face.
that's all. if only time would stopped, at that moment when you
hugged me so tightly that very night, i promise, i'll nver let go.
i've nver tried to forget you at all, because i've nver stopped loving.
lovely, im sorry, i lied. this is th biggest lie, i've ever told, to you.
you'll have to forgive me, because..
this is th worst thing i'll ever want to lie to anyone.
i dont know why, but i just have that sudden urge..
to tell you this, baby im sorry, i really miss you.
just one more time, i'll wanna hear your voice & see your face.
that's all. if only time would stopped, at that moment when you
hugged me so tightly that very night, i promise, i'll nver let go.
i've nver tried to forget you at all, because i've nver stopped loving.
lovely, im sorry, i lied. this is th biggest lie, i've ever told, to you.
you'll have to forgive me, because..
this is th worst thing i'll ever want to lie to anyone.
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Left @ 10/24/2008 04:28:00 PM
Left @ 10/24/2008 04:28:00 PM
Thursday, October 23, 2008 ♥.
hopefully..
everything turns out well for o levels. well, i was actually quite surprised that th papers turned out quite alright. whatever it is, o levels is once in a lifetime. so gotta work hard for it. having emaths tmrr! kinda excited but im scared that i'll be careless on my calculations. still, i'll do my best. at least,when i put in my best, even if i dont do well, i wont be that disappointed. cause i've done my part. thats all i'll say. good luck to everyone for tmrr's paper (:
it was a beautiful mistake that we became tgt.
& you'll always be with me, now and in future.
baby im sure you know why i said this, i miss you.
everything turns out well for o levels. well, i was actually quite surprised that th papers turned out quite alright. whatever it is, o levels is once in a lifetime. so gotta work hard for it. having emaths tmrr! kinda excited but im scared that i'll be careless on my calculations. still, i'll do my best. at least,when i put in my best, even if i dont do well, i wont be that disappointed. cause i've done my part. thats all i'll say. good luck to everyone for tmrr's paper (:
it was a beautiful mistake that we became tgt.
& you'll always be with me, now and in future.
baby im sure you know why i said this, i miss you.
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Left @ 10/23/2008 12:07:00 PM
Left @ 10/23/2008 12:07:00 PM
Sunday, October 19, 2008 ♥.
EMOTIONS.
th hardest thing in life.
is to watch th one you love, loving someone else.
its just emotions taking me over.
caught up in sorrows, lost in th soul.
but if you dont come back, come home to me darling.
dont know that nobody's left in this world to hold me tight.
dont you know that nobody's left in this world to kiss goodnight..
th hardest thing in life.
is to watch th one you love, loving someone else.
its just emotions taking me over.
caught up in sorrows, lost in th soul.
but if you dont come back, come home to me darling.
dont know that nobody's left in this world to hold me tight.
dont you know that nobody's left in this world to kiss goodnight..
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Left @ 10/19/2008 03:04:00 PM
Left @ 10/19/2008 03:04:00 PM
Friday, October 17, 2008 ♥.
tired of trying..
sick of crying..
yeah im smiling..
but inside im dying.
we've both agreed to let go, but i kept hanging on.
confessions of a broken heart, baby you're all that i had.
im utterly speechless, i'll move away, its my own fault babe.
i've let you down. please, dont speak anymore, i dont wish to hear.
thanks for all these years of time and memories, i'll remember.
that's all i've to say, takecare and all the best.
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Left @ 10/17/2008 09:29:00 PM
Left @ 10/17/2008 09:29:00 PM
Friday, October 10, 2008 ♥.
give me some time..
i dont actually intend to blog, all th way, but i was told about something, so i decided to go and have a look at it. i hope you'll read this post of mine, its meant for you my dear.
actually.. i really wanna tell you th truth. actually i really wanna be alright with you. but.. th consequences, im so damn afraid. yes, you're right, everything takes courage. and courage, is a hard thing to pluck up and go forward to. am i right? im not as strong, not at all, guess you arent too.im waiting fot th right time, this time, if you dont dare to come forward, i'll go forward instead. but still.. not now. give me some time to find a right solution to everything. fact is, its not like i didn't care. i do crack my brain cells. almost everyday and night. i think and think and think. yes, telling you not to think too much, its just a stupid thing to say so. cause if i were you, i wont stop thinking too. im really thinking of a best way to solve this thing.
anyways, someday i'll tell you everything. meanwhile, like i said, i hope.. you really can take some time to think properly, not to waste time stressing. i dont wish to lose such a fren like you. but, if for th sake of both of us, please, spare some time thinking.. i know, you'll say you dont know, and you did not lie or whatever. but.. listen to me, give yourself some time to think, you can drop me a msg, if you feel that you've got th answer. and i can promise you, if you really really get th answer, we'll talk.. and nothing will be told to others. i just.. hope you take my words seriously. meantime, give me time.. give me time to think. and you too, please heed my words. this is th only solution left for us, for th time being. for th good well of us, please make a wise choice.
i believe.. im doing well, on hating you.
you will soon disappear from my heart, im glad (:
i dont actually intend to blog, all th way, but i was told about something, so i decided to go and have a look at it. i hope you'll read this post of mine, its meant for you my dear.
actually.. i really wanna tell you th truth. actually i really wanna be alright with you. but.. th consequences, im so damn afraid. yes, you're right, everything takes courage. and courage, is a hard thing to pluck up and go forward to. am i right? im not as strong, not at all, guess you arent too.im waiting fot th right time, this time, if you dont dare to come forward, i'll go forward instead. but still.. not now. give me some time to find a right solution to everything. fact is, its not like i didn't care. i do crack my brain cells. almost everyday and night. i think and think and think. yes, telling you not to think too much, its just a stupid thing to say so. cause if i were you, i wont stop thinking too. im really thinking of a best way to solve this thing.
anyways, someday i'll tell you everything. meanwhile, like i said, i hope.. you really can take some time to think properly, not to waste time stressing. i dont wish to lose such a fren like you. but, if for th sake of both of us, please, spare some time thinking.. i know, you'll say you dont know, and you did not lie or whatever. but.. listen to me, give yourself some time to think, you can drop me a msg, if you feel that you've got th answer. and i can promise you, if you really really get th answer, we'll talk.. and nothing will be told to others. i just.. hope you take my words seriously. meantime, give me time.. give me time to think. and you too, please heed my words. this is th only solution left for us, for th time being. for th good well of us, please make a wise choice.
i believe.. im doing well, on hating you.
you will soon disappear from my heart, im glad (:
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Left @ 10/10/2008 06:11:00 PM
Left @ 10/10/2008 06:11:00 PM
Sunday, October 05, 2008 ♥.
when you know all these are just useless..
you still do it, and to your best, because you felt that, that's th best for me. perhaps it really is. i really hope it is, i really hope all these cud end, as soon as possible. cause its hurting me very badly, i dont wish to be th one giving a strong stand anymore.it doesn't pays off for being strong. if you realized you're doing th wrong thing, you can stop anytime. i'll be glad to accept that decision. i guess i really hate you, im hating you like as if theres no tmrr left for me to do so. im not lying, i really hate you to th core.
this is what you hoped for, im sure of it. but it wont work, hatred wont last forever. not even a few days for me. trust me, my dear. you can act like as if you wont care, but let me tell you, i know you'll be there, somewhere around. you can say you dont care, but you'll be able to feel me crying, everytime. so dont act anymore, its not convincing at all, because your heart, totally ruined your plan. try harder th next time. no matter how hard you tried to be cruel and everything, you can never succeed. you once siad, it may hurt, i may cry, but i somehow wont give up. no its not true, i can do it. its just, i dont wish to give it up. you'll see, someday, we'll definately be in real different worlds. its just not time yet.
you'll know, what i've done, and what you've done.
th things we've tried to make for each other, its gonna kill us slowly.
BLOG CLOSED DOWN FOR TH TIME BEING.
I WILL NOT BE UPDATING MUCH TILL O LEVELS ARE OVER.
- but still, i will try to update at times, to let everyone get updated.
cause i realizedth time till o levels are over, its gonna be a month or so!
so well, study hard pple, i will update at least once in one or two weeks.
i know im contridicting! but well, sorries ~ dont stop trying! (:
you still do it, and to your best, because you felt that, that's th best for me. perhaps it really is. i really hope it is, i really hope all these cud end, as soon as possible. cause its hurting me very badly, i dont wish to be th one giving a strong stand anymore.it doesn't pays off for being strong. if you realized you're doing th wrong thing, you can stop anytime. i'll be glad to accept that decision. i guess i really hate you, im hating you like as if theres no tmrr left for me to do so. im not lying, i really hate you to th core.
this is what you hoped for, im sure of it. but it wont work, hatred wont last forever. not even a few days for me. trust me, my dear. you can act like as if you wont care, but let me tell you, i know you'll be there, somewhere around. you can say you dont care, but you'll be able to feel me crying, everytime. so dont act anymore, its not convincing at all, because your heart, totally ruined your plan. try harder th next time. no matter how hard you tried to be cruel and everything, you can never succeed. you once siad, it may hurt, i may cry, but i somehow wont give up. no its not true, i can do it. its just, i dont wish to give it up. you'll see, someday, we'll definately be in real different worlds. its just not time yet.
you'll know, what i've done, and what you've done.
th things we've tried to make for each other, its gonna kill us slowly.
BLOG CLOSED DOWN FOR TH TIME BEING.
I WILL NOT BE UPDATING MUCH TILL O LEVELS ARE OVER.
- but still, i will try to update at times, to let everyone get updated.
cause i realizedth time till o levels are over, its gonna be a month or so!
so well, study hard pple, i will update at least once in one or two weeks.
i know im contridicting! but well, sorries ~ dont stop trying! (:
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Left @ 10/05/2008 01:39:00 PM
Left @ 10/05/2008 01:39:00 PM
