
after going thru so much, it ended up with nothing.
i believe that i've been feeling happy these few days, i mean, im really back to th jingying everyone used to know. th one who lames around & keep laughing & smiling like a mad woman. i announce proudly, im really alright now. its like.. i used to act as if im alright, well.. its tiring. seriously, it kills. but right now, i somehow woke up from my deep and painful sleep. i cant say i wont tink of my past & totally forget every stuff. but, im trying my best. im not forgetting, im just accepting everything that is turning into right now. i dont mind crying to recall th past, but i will not forget, because forgetting is a lie and it is actually a way to escape from reality. so, why not face it and accept th fact and let it go? im able to do it now,im glad. credits dont go to myself, but to everyone who was there for me! i seriously love you guys, i realized so much things after i can accept th fact of everything now.
i just wanna say, dont get me wrong, i didn't throw away my past. i just kept it, really deep in my heart. i still miss him. i dont deny, but only as a best memory. yea? i cant hold on to th depressing past, i'll die in sorrows. so, im really alright now, no lies! im now single & available! lol. just kidding xD im only available to my brothers & sisters ! hees.
oh yessssssssssss my dearest readers ~
have you cast your votes for th nominated photos? ^^
for th time being, its aloy's photo leading (:
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Left @ 11/24/2008 08:29:00 PM