12 years of living with this brother of mine to my right.

i seriously, cant stand him at many times, irritating like hell.

but after all, he is still my brother that i love.

he may not know how much i treasure this family.

maybe my bad temper shows that i dont care.

but fact is, i love him as much than anyone.

but.. i really feel like killing him when he irritates me without fail.

EVERYDAY.

well.. i went to many places and have seen many happenings. i dont know what life exactly is about. but after all, i realized, life is something that you'll have to go accepting it and feel what its all about. many times, pple advised and warned, not to walk into th lion's den. but we still do walk in and feel th pain and cry after everything. its stupid. but, this is where we start to learn and experience. after so much, i understand many things, and you'll find out, life's full of interesting things, not just a word called 'meaningless'. losing your love ones, is just like stabbing our hearts and we bleed. but, crying, is not something we can actually prevent. so, let it out. but after so much, its time to let go. its not about 'i can't let it go'. its a must to. everyone goes around with this sentence 'i tried, but i really cant put it down.' but th fact is.. we didn't tried, hard enough to overcome this. recalling th past, is not a bad thing, it may hurt at many times. but life still goes on, it wont stop just for you. even if we keep crying everyday, things cant go back to th past anymore. why not putting your time to th pple who're still around, loving & caring for you instead? im sure, this will be th best thing to continue your life with.

i still have dreams of you, not that i dont.

but, i chose to put it off my mind.

and continue my life without you anymore.

i'll put my time and effort using my heart,

to th pple around who love and care for me.

i will continue my life, treating myself even better than th past.

okay, im done with posting today.

goodbye pple (: